Cloudy Day but a bit brighter

To The Man In The Moon - 
It was a rough morning. Rough enough to have me messaging Dr's because of the pain. I was getting worried it wasn't going to stop. My stomachs just steadily getting worse again and the medication isn't keeping it at bay. 
I however did get the friend therapy I was so desperately needing. Alyssa Tru and Natalie are truly the best. I am blessed to be able to know them and have their support. I hope I am able to be their person of support when they need it as well. At some point in my life I hope all of the people I have loved and cared about are able to feel that in a time of need whether I am still a part of their life or not. I know I am not always great about being able to show up everytime and for everything and I know there are plenty of people who feel the same. We all are hurting and are going through things that keep us from being 100 but it doesn't make it less valuable or important of the times we are able to be there for each other. 
I miss having close people that I can share my pain with and find ways to live through it. My mother and I could find a way to laugh and cry our way through the struggle. People like that are one of the most valuable things in life we get to know. I wish I had my mother to help me. It sure sucks trying to get through life without her. I hope I find more strength, I hope I embrace more wonderful experiences and people to help me make the most out of life. I need more laughter and more friends and more love to celebrate life's day to day bullshit. God bless the ones who love and support me and Liam. The struggle is fucking deep. 

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