June 2023
To The Man In The Moon - I have been stuck in the hospital for a week. And in every moment when I am in desperate need of a moment to find my thoughts and catch my breath there are always more and more people coming to take a stab at me. Literally. When I am desperate for someone to help me they all disappear and I am left struggling. But when I can't fight or be hurt or take anymore pain then it's like they are all here for their pound of flesh. It's maddening. I have cried and fought and soothed and pleaded and begged and prayed and I feel only the opposite of that of which I seek. I'm sure some God or Devil revils in my demise. And I can't find a lick of love left. Especially for myself. I found the truth to be bitter ans yet I didn't once try to deny it. Whatever fresh hell I find I ultimately deserve to some degree. My existence here is based on flaws. My only hope to put some sort of love and spice into what and who Liam is. When I am gone it will only ma...