Letters To The Man in The Moon

I want to believe him when he tells me that I am his world. I want to believe that this man will love me and love my son and make us his world. I have prayed for it. But. I dont believe he is done with other women. I think that if the opportunity arose I would need to worry. I am his world here. But that's temporary. Things will change. I dont feel secure. I feel like I am a good thing until he finds something something shiny and new and better.  I am never enough. I wasn't enough evem after he decided I was what he wanted so I know I won't be enough now.  Hes a great guy. He's an amazing guy and I am lucky he would even try to make something happen with me.  But I can't trust my heart. I was so sure and now I feel rejected and unwanted. He made me feel so special and wanted and treasured and now I get scared that when he touches me I'm all wrong. That he's comparing me to her and all these other women who want him. I sit and wonder if he talked ...

I hope it's a good day. Though I feel like I am always missing something. I just want it to be a good day for you. You say you're happy but I don't see it. Everything you say you want...I do everything in my power to do and give you. But in the end you seem dissatisfied and unhappy with it all.  You want to do more and I try to docthings with you but then it seems you change your mind and don't want to do anything at all.  I am failing.  I feel defeated and lost. And still you say you're happy.  I wish I felt that. 😪