Full Moon Friday the 13th

Must be the pull of a full moon calling me back to write to you, Dad. Seeing you so full and illuminating, calling me to release the burdens that weigh me down. Can't say how long it's been since the last time I wrote you. A year I think. My how life has changed in a year! 

We bought a house. that's right this past December Dustin and I talked with Patty and decided to buy a house. It's an amazing house and I know you would be so proud. We are loving it. Grandma too. Liam loves having his room and his playroom, and most importantly his yard. He is so cute, he still calls it our"new house". He's amazing. I can't believe how smart he is. And he's a crack up. You would be wrapped around his little finger. My little man. He's grandma's boy! They are so cute together. I think it does her good to be here with him. He's already got such a personality. He's just full of life, and laughter. He keeps me going. 

My health has been really rough lately. I know I can do better. I am my own worst enemy. I'm actually thinking about trying to get help to get past all this crap and get my health back on track. I do really good and then I get stressed and then my stomach and everything gets all messed up and I am back at square one. I have had several bad days lately and it just really takes a toll on me and my mood. I need a pick me up lol

I miss you. Fathers Day is Sunday and I helped Liam make stuff for Dustin and his dad and they are both... Well let's just say they aren't like you. I guess I was just lucky to have someone who loved me as much as you did because even though I only got 9 years with you I think I got more than some people who have a lifetime with their dads. I wish Liam could have known that from you. Either way, Sunday I will be celebrating you and the love you gave me that will last me forever. You set a high standard. Lol I love you.

To The Man In The Moon,
Happy Father's Day, Dad!
And thanks for the long lasting love and influence. Dads love last forever.

Love 
Your Daughter
Sondra 



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